How is this possible?

Georgia is 6 months old! I am very grateful that the newborn days are well in the past, but at the same time, how is she this old already?? I hope my second born baby knows how much I love her, even though I spend most of my day trying to keep Daniel from tearing the house apart. Sometimes it seems like she's a little monkey hanging onto my shoulder, just along for the ride. I hope she doesn't feel ignored just because I can't spend hours and hours mooning into her eyes and giving her oodles of undivided attention.

And of course, it was affirmed today at the pediatrician's office that yes, she is the world's smallest baby. And yes, I've had my fill of all the comments that come with the territory. Like, "Oh my, all of my children weighed more at birth than she does now!" Or, "She's smaller than my 3 week old!" Or, "Look at the tiny baby ya'll! I've never seen one so tiny!" Yeah, okay, she's a peanut. She may be the size of your supersized newborn, but I'll tell you one thing. I'd much rather give birth to a 6 pound baby than a giganto 11 pound superbaby. And one other thing- can your 11 pound baby sit up on their own? I think not.

This is why its awesome to have two kids. They actually play together now! Okay, its more like playing alongside one another. But no matter what kind of interaction it is, I still think its beautiful.

And speaking of having two of them, I really feel like I've found the new normal. For the first few months, I always felt like I constantly had to divide myself between the two of them. And then, of course, I felt like neither one of them got the total mom that they deserved. But lately I feel like I'm able to give everyone what they need at the same time. Maybe its because Georgia is older, or maybe its because Daniel is older. Or maybe I'm just finding my groove as a mom again. All I know is I have less days of feeling sad over how my relationship with my son will never be the same again and guilt over what I'm not giving my daughter. Life right now is balanced and full.

In fact, I'm feeling recharged enough that I've actually been practicing lately. Having a babysitter helps immensely with this. I'm actually trying to be ambitious and learn a program that might work for a recital in the late spring. We'll see. I just realized that its been 4 years since my master's recital. FOUR YEARS. How did that happen?? And I'm pretty sure that was my last public performance. So, in the word of Wolf Brand Chili, that's been too long. Hopefully by putting this little bit of info out there, my friends will ask my how the piano practice is going, and that will keep me working.

So, I created this blog a long long time ago, but got distracted and didn't write anything in it. I think maybe the time has come for me to blabber on about my life. I guess the reason why I've procrastinated jumping on the blog bandwagon is 1) sometimes the term "blog" (and all other derivatives) really gives me a pain in my ass and 2) blogs always seem like diaries and I'm not too keen on writing a diary where I can't let it all hang out. Well, I could, but this is kind of public, you know? Anyway, be forewarned that there will be lots of posts about kids and domestic life. Its inevitable when you've got 2 small kiddos who pretty much take up all your time. But there may be a few items about music, politics and theater. Who knows it may even be mildly entertaining